Another grey but mysterious and Godly morning. No sun--just swirling clouds and peace. Even the birds are quiet.
Went hiking w/ Scout yesterday and went off trail. Got "lost". Getting lost is a lot like life. I've hiked out and I'm coming back hopefully the way I went out. But no. I can't find my way. I then head along a ridge that I've never been on and not really sure what direction because there is no sun but it feels right. I feel that this ridge will take me to a cut between two large ridges which will take me to a trail I know. I follow the ridge for a while and then start heading down ridge slightly. I ended up not where I thought I would be, but at a trail I knew.
I tried to reach out and love people at God's Abundant Market last night but came away lonely and with d trying to run up on me. Instead of dealing with d I self medicated and watch a movie and felt fine.
Stretch and meditated for a short moment. Realized that doing meals on wheels this morn is reaching out and loving people if I want it to be and not just something I do. Z has a mysterious way of teaching by unveiling
Mo comes back this afternoon--glad. I will do right by that wonderful person. R has been totally uncommunicative for 32 hours now--wonder why, but it is ok to worry.